Dec 06 2008
The Racetrack
Yesterday, after a little over an hour of delays that caused me to miss lunch with my Asiatic friend, the Rutgers therapist called me and asked me a series of questions. Apparently, the call is not an intake session, but a pre-intake session. Because my last intake session was in the Spring of 2008, I have to do all of the paper work (including abysmal questionnaires) all over again. Oh. Woe. Is. Me. (That’s what we intellectuals like to call sarcasm.) (And that’s what we meta-intellectuals like to call facetiousness.)
Anyway, I spent nearly all of yesterday studying for my Geology exam. I am determined to ace this exam (and the final paper and presentation) so I can seal an A. I did decently on the last two exams, but my attendance at lab deteriorated as my depression set in, and I have only kept in contact with the professor via e-mail. I’ll kick myself for not going to his office hours at least a couple times, but his class was the last of the day, so I wanted quite desperately to just run to the bus so I could get back home in time to eat a decent meal and study for my other subjects. Even without a job, I find that I’m busier than ever.
I’m determined to get an A in Human Evolution as well. Not to mention, it’s a four-credit class, and would help to outweigh the other subjects I have been neglecting. I’m hoping my thesis advisor gives me an A, but my communication skills leave quite a bit to be desired, and I have stood her up at her office more times than I would like to recall. I suppose I get that aspect of my personality from my mother.
And today, I’m going to spend the majority of the day studying as well. I’ll study cavemen and dirt all day–with maybe just a dash of a dead language.
Anyway, I keep thinking about what exactly I’d like to do with ecology, and I’m really interested in looking for a summer job (either full time or part time) that deals with hands-on interaction with cleaning, and being outdoors and getting sweaty. I’d like to work with the environment, and if I have to work with people, I suppose that’s acceptable as well. It’s just a matter of going into the right program. I want to get into the higher level sciences (and I’ll have to if I want to go to graduate school), but it looks like I’m not going to be able to finish school until another three years, and who knows if I’m going to have the money. I think programs like AmeriCorps may be able to help with that, but only so much. I may have to be a part-time student (although part-time students don’t get nearly as much financial aid). I was hoping to get a lab job of some kind, but I haven’t been able to get into any science class this semester and I won’t be able to get into one next semester without the math requirements. This is such a mess. There are so many things I wish I had done differently. But, if I am a part-time student that would leave me enough time to work. I just wouldn’t be able to graduate until 2020.
While at Rutgers, I’ve considered trying to apply for a dual degree program with Environmental Public Health. But we’ll see. If I did indeed try to do such a thing I wouldn’t be able to apply for another couple years anyway. But it would be nice to be able to get a Masters without the lengthy application process. I’ll think about it.
Well, of course I haven’t eaten yet. So I’m going to have to figure out some way to fix that.
